Sobriety Series | episode 2 | reliability

I want to discuss reliability. It’s been an ongoing theme of my life, that I’ve always wanted to feel reliable as a human being to another human. Nothing allows me to secure and reliable like being sober. In any given situation, I always want to be that person that people can depend on. When I was drinking, I felt like that fell waist side. However, I was okay with that it. I figured we’re all having a good time. I would rather drink than be the person people depend on. In the back of my mind, I knew it was because I ultimately had little control over drinking. It bothered me. I wanted to be a reliable human. I wanted to be dependable. If anything had happened at any given moment, I wanted to know that I had the ability to respond quickly and do the best that I could in any given situation. And I know that that cannot happen unless I’m sober.

Fast forward to me being sober now. It’s amazing. I feel constantly in control. I know that if there is an issue or something I can’t address in that moment, it’s because there is a mental block. It has nothing to do with anything else. So then I just tell myself, “Just do it. This is a mental block. You’re in fear of this and you don’t need to be. Just do it. I have the capabilities and control to do it!” 

Reliability is huge, it’s awesome! I love being there if needed and it makes me feel so good.